All i can say is... WOW... wut a FUCKING INSANE WEEKEND. soo friday i promoted at the new club our promotion company has started to promote. omg wut a phqn bad day that way. first i had no phone. then i cudnt get an ID fo my friend. no ride ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh HDSJHDUSIHDASK. but it all worked out in the end. *sigh* if only he was skinnier... haha i kno i hav good judgement. hahaha ANYWAYS so didnt get bak to noahz pad till like 3ish slept around 4 ish. we only got like 2 hrs of sleep then had to get up and get ready for the runway show in santa monica... SO FUN!!!! made lotsa new friends. networked. exchanged business cards. awesome day. the clothes we modeled in were soo awesome too. my favorite is Diables. such a sexy brand. jus the price is not so sexy... hahaha so after the show we all went to drink in the VIP section. got a massage and everything. That game was sooo fun. everyone fighting to drink out of one cup LOLOLZ. good times. Thank u Tina and Vivian for comingggggg. =) anyways so afterwards we all went to eat sushi. yummmm. thank u yoshi for treating all of us. hahaha my sugar daddy lolzzzz. then after that went bak to noahs pad. took a quick nap and went to phillips pad fo AFTERPARTY. omg kiki is soo hot. she is such a hot model XDDDD such a swty too. <3. didnt leave philllips pad till like 7 in the morning. Dam thats like almost 12 hrz of drinking. haha. i am NOT an alcholic =). daniel got wayyyy to drunk. no one knew how to drive his stick shift lolz. so noah drove it. Props to noah <33. anyways got home. passed the phq outtt. then woke up after like 6 hrs of sleep and went motorcycle riding with Todd <33333333333 soooooooo funnn <3 god i love speed. and im absolutely crazy bout motorcycles. Such a phqn sexxy ass kawasaki bike <3333. we rode everywhere. went up the mountains. sunset. star filled sky. phqnnn coldnesss @____@. so cold haha. need to get myself a leather jacket. =) then went to god sisters friend bbq party. Ate. Drank. and Todd learned how to play mahjong <3 hahaha soo awesome. hes so smart =) definitely gonna go out riding with him again sometime soon =) wut a krzy weekend... phew.... now to tackle this coming thanksgiving weekend hahaha

hmmM~ lets seee. last nite was interesting and fun hahaha. Todd... u dont put half a bottle of yeiger in half a cup of redbull... its not 50/50 percent proportion.. ughhh that tasted so bad hahaha. anyways. so at the clubb worked a little . got some emails. finished working and then PARTYYYY haha. good thing there was 5 birthday bashes goin on last nite or else i wudnt have had to opportunity to use it as an excuse to get that certain someone a drink. hahahha. goooood times. y do i keep losing T_____T doshite? and meguru san hidoi yo~ speaking to me all fast in japanese. im like @@ slower... slower onegai haha. i need to sharpen up my japanese skillls ><. so anywaysss back to the fun stuff. got to dance with him!!! yay~ hahahahhah soooooo happy =P. AND got his #... even though he had my # like the whole time... o.O LOL he was like... but u have it already... i was like no.... i dont... and then he shows me his phone and was like is this ur #? im like o.O how? when?......nvm.. hahahah i guess i was drunk last time hahaha o wells. its all good. ^______^. mission accomplished. Hopefully tonite will b fun too =). time to loook sexy. O~! and tmw... Hope all goes well for my runway show >__< so nervous! =D but its gonna b an amazing experience i just know it =).

XOXO i think im actually going to start posting on xanga again haha... nobody uses it anymore i guess. which is perfect becuz i can jus type wutever the hell i want on it =). I live in the future not in the past.

Wow.. its been 2 yeasr since i last posted here. pretty much forgot about xanga.... until friend of mine told me he still uses it hahaha. i guess its kind of a nice place to write about how my days are going..

well lets see... in the past two years.. alot has happened. I graduated with an AA degree in Fashion Design... currently not doing very much to continue and pursue my career.... at the moment i guess u can say im kind of stuck in limbo... just doing random things to keep myself busy as the days go by.....

I think i just want a little bit more time for myself before i throw myself into my career. Just a little bit more time to myself.... so i can enjoy life the way i want to.....

The greatest irony of love:
Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone right after
That person walks out of your life...
And sometimes, you think you're already over a person,
But when you see them smile at you,
You'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending
To be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that
They will never be yours again...
For some, they think that letting go is one way
Of expressing how much you love the person...
In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love
Being held by someone else...
Most relationships tend to fail not because
The absence of love. Love is always present.
It's just that one was being loved too much and the
Other was being loved too little...
As we all know that the heart is the center of the body
But it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason
Why the heart is not always right...
Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love
But to only discover that for them,
We are just for past times, while the one who truly
Loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...
So here's a piece of advice:
Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love
Isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before...
For sure, there is someone out there
Who will love you even more... "

from my view.. it's not easy to let go or give up when you found someone you truely love.. someone who you think is THE ONE for you... but better let go before you die from suffering....................................